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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 7:30 AM
You're lying on the floor. Well. You're reasonably sure you didn't fall asleep there, but maybe Penny kicked you off the bed or something.
7:30 AM
You push yourself to your feet... Huh. That doesn't look like the ship's floor.
7:30 AM
You straighten up and examine your surroundings. You're in some sort of shadowed, endless expanse, with a featureless grey floor. When you look up, you can barely see what look like bright teal neurons, all interconnected and pulsing slowly. They're far away, and almost not visible through the shadow.
7:30 AM
That's ominous. What should you do?
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Become anyone else. A younger sister perhaps?
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 7:46 AM
You attempt to focus and become some totally theoretical younger sister. ...The closest you can get is turning into Penny. You change back almost immediately, because being in someone else's body feels weird.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 7:57 AM
You look around for something besides grey floor, and notice something off in the distance. You tilt your head and step over.
7:57 AM
There's a very large loom on an elevated platform, seemingly completely empty except for one thread. The rest of the loom stretches off beyond the bounds of the small lit area you can access. You squint, and almost like a trick of the light, you think you just barely see... two more threads trailing off up into nowhere, past the neurons. You try to see where they're attached to, but you can't see either end. Not yet, at least.
7:57 AM
That's, oddly confusing.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 8:22 AM
Scratching your head, you decide to step up and inspect the single thread you can access. It, doesn't seem very special. Just an ordinary, red thread. You tap it. It's strung taut. Your head abruptly gets a little fuzzy, and you step back a few paces.
8:22 AM
...On a whim, you decide to pluck the thread. It oscillates back and forth a few times, the fuzziness getting intense enough that you clutch your head and almost fall over.
8:22 AM
The thread vibrates at just the right frequency to appear doubled... and suddenly it is, the loom now holding two threads. The fuzziness abruptly ceases. You blink and look up... and see yourself on the other side of the loom.
8:22 AM
woah
8:22 AM
(woah)
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 8:30 AM
damn this is trippy
8:30 AM
(youre telling me)
8:30 AM
i am telling me
8:30 AM
(wasnt sure about doing that bit honestly feels overplayed)
8:30 AM
me neither but i did it anyway
8:30 AM
(eh fair)
8:30 AM
(but boggling aside so like)
8:30 AM
The other Mich (hereafter referred to as Mich 2) gestures at the loom.
8:30 AM
(what the fuck did we even just do)
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 8:51 AM
man i dunno
8:51 AM
(yeah ok dunno why i asked were literally the same person)
8:51 AM
(...hey you think this just permanent now)
8:51 AM
(like am i gonna be backseating even after we wake up or something)
8:51 AM
maybe?
8:51 AM
lemme try
8:51 AM
You step back over to the loom again, and this time you attempt to pinch the strings together. They stick lightly on contact, and both your outlines start to blur together. You run your pinched fingers over the threads, smoothing them together, and suddenly you're one again. You reel back a little, hit with the sudden memories of both sides of the conversation.
8:51 AM
ok thats even trippier
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 9:13 AM
After shaking off the disorientation, you experiment for a while. There seems to be a hard limit of three "threads" of yourself at once. If you try and make another after that, each one just gets a headache. The whole process is actually pretty simple, and with practice you quickly figure out how to multithread yourself without even messing around with the loom abstraction. After that the loom itself fades, although the trailing threads in the distance stay, still unreachable.
9:13 AM
After collapsing into one Mich for simplicity's sake, you start walking and attempting to look for anything else in your mindscape. You don't find anything, however, your footsteps just echoing aimlessly.
9:13 AM
...Thinking about it, what even is this floor made of? It sounds and feels like tile, but there's an odd quality to it that doesn't feel right.
9:13 AM
...What would happen if you tried digging?
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 9:32 AM
Oh, fuck it. You summon a pickaxe from the aether, and swing it down. To your surprise, the floor is not a featureless platonic solid, and instead cracks splinter from where it impacts. It's rather shallow, though, and it seems like it'll take more than that to get anywhere. You multithread some more Miches with more pickaxes, and get to digging.
9:32 AM
After around half a mental hour, one of your pickaxes pokes a hole through to, something underneath. You perk up, and start working on widening the hole. In short order you have it wide enough for a person to squeeze through. You collapse down to one, throw away the pickaxe, and hop down a layer.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 9:50 AM
You fall for only a short while, landing on... carpet? You look around. It's, an office. A bog-standard office, with cubicles and the like. There's nobody in them, however. You wander around for a bit, before coming across a door. You can hear... muttering, from the other side?
9:50 AM
This does not bode well.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:03 AM
You knock on the door. The muttering pauses, and you can hear footsteps. The door is thrown open. What stands on the other side appears to be you, albeit in complete shadow with glowing teal shades and mouth. It seems dumbfounded.
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...What.
10:03 AM
Oh god dammit, is it that time already?
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:03 AM
It groans, before waving you inside.
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Ugh, come on in then.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:03 AM
You blink, equally dumbfounded, but just step inside cautiously. The room is a standard executive office suite... if you can ignore the corkboards and string almost completely covering the walls, that is. The floor-to-ceiling window is almost completely covered in sticky notes, but past them you can see a bird's-eye view of those teal neurons.
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It takes a seat in an office chair and swivels to face you with a deadpan expression.
10:03 AM
Well then.
10:03 AM
Go on, ask those obvious questions.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:06 AM
You blink.
10:06 AM
uh
10:06 AM
alright
10:06 AM
who the hell are you
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It sighs and pinches the bridge of it's nose.
10:06 AM
Question without an answer right there.
10:06 AM
If you had to stick a label on me, I guess I'd be like.
10:06 AM
Some unholy combination of the id and superego?
10:06 AM
Though Freudian psychology is fucking bullshit so just go with subconscious, I guess that works.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:09 AM
ok sure
10:09 AM
uhhh next question
10:09 AM
You gesture to the conspiracy-level boards and string around the room.
10:09 AM
the hell is all this
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It spins in the chair and spreads its arms.
10:09 AM
This, is every fucking thing wrong with us.
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Or more specifically, all the things that make no fucking sense about our memories and self.
10:09 AM
Because brother, shit is fucked.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:14 AM
...what do you mean
10:14 AM
i havent noticed anything huge enough to warrant this
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It snorts.
10:14 AM
Oh, of course you haven't.
10:14 AM
You're the conscious mind, the ego.
10:14 AM
Drifting on by without having to sift through every single thing in our mess of a psyche.
10:14 AM
We may not have consciously noticed it. But we sure as hell have subconsciously noticed it.
10:14 AM
It points to itself again.
10:14 AM
And guess who the fuck I am.
10:14 AM
That's right. The subconscious.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:18 AM
...ok
10:18 AM
so what exactly have i subconsciously noticed
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It stands up.
10:19 AM
That there's something missing.
10:19 AM
Something important.
10:19 AM
Something we practically built our damn personality around, just gone.
10:19 AM
We're a damn shell of a person, Mich. You and I both know that.
10:19 AM
It walks over to one of the corkboards and slams a finger onto some sort of spreadsheet.
10:19 AM
Number one. Right here. The protector complex.
10:24 AM
We have a near-intrinsic desire to protect.
10:24 AM
Protect what, you ask?
10:24 AM
We don't know! By definition, to protect there must be a target to receive said protection.
10:24 AM
But when we search for said target? Nada. Nothing.
10:24 AM
Just a blank space.
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But! But!
10:24 AM
It follows a string to another set of papers.
10:24 AM
Look here. There are still some references left to this blank space, pathways without a destination. There was something there.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:32 AM
You just blink.
10:32 AM
...so what was it
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It lets out a vaguely broken-sounding laugh.
10:32 AM
Well if we knew that we wouldn't be in this goddamned situation, would we?
10:32 AM
We don't know what it was. But we know some things it reminded us of.
10:32 AM
It follows the strings again to an entirely different board.
10:32 AM
Cooking. Our insular cortex has so much fine dining experience and opinions, despite the fact that in recent memory we've survived on nothing but a diet of takeout, cup ramen, and toast.
10:32 AM
Why the hell do we know that we prefer slow-simmered alfredo sauce over quick-cooked? The last time we had anything remotely resembling an Italian meal was when we went out to Olive Garden at 16.
10:32 AM
Fucking Olive Garden!
10:36 AM
It taps another paper.
10:36 AM
Plushies. We have an extensive map of plushie preferences memorized, and it's not even our own!
10:36 AM
That's a different map, right here.
10:36 AM
We only own like four or five of the things, and yet we've got an entirely separate mental ranking of several damn hundred!
10:36 AM
For what reason? What is it for?
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It continues on like that for another half hour, listing all sorts of missing connections, and things without any seeming purpose.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:44 AM
You just stand and watch, stunned into silence.
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...and there's also the whole aspiration to be a good trans ally thing.
10:44 AM
Like, there's a good chunk of our sympathetic bandwidth tied up in making sure we respect trans identities.
10:44 AM
I'm not saying there's anything wrong with that. It's a net good overall, actually.
10:44 AM
But where the hell did an aspiration of this intensity come from!
10:44 AM
Like, we don't have any trans friends, at least none that have said so to us. There aren't any major trans celebrities or public figures we have any personal investment in. We're, well uh. Probably cis? So there's not a self-centered argument for it-
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:44 AM
You blink, only just processing that last part.
10:44 AM
wait wait wait
10:44 AM
what do you mean probably
10:44 AM
were definitely cis arent we
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:45 AM
...right
10:46 AM
...Alright this is a major digression but so long as we're talking I'm just saying-
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 10:54 AM
no no no hold on
10:54 AM
ive just been listening this whole time but im not taking this laying down
10:54 AM
not that thered be anything wrong with that but like
10:54 AM
i think wed know if we were trans right
10:54 AM
like yeah theres a few boxes we check but theres something else to it right
10:54 AM
like if all it took to be trans was wanting to be a different gender then-
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Yeah. I know. I'm you. And that checks out as far as I know, there's almost certainly some overarching sign. But like-
10:54 AM
There's always those subconscious doubts.
10:54 AM
And I am literally the crystallization of your subconscious.
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OmnipresentMicroorganism 11/28/2022 10:54 AM
//Gotta pause, college
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> If this subconscious knows so much, why don't they switch places with you in the waking world?
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A ticker-tape machine in a corner activates and spits something out. It raises an eyebrow, but walks over and reads the tape. It snorts.
1:51 PM
Oh that's just fucking rich.
1:51 PM
You think any of this is literal?
1:51 PM
It's just abstractions on abstractions.
1:51 PM
I'm not even sapient in a meaningful sense, I'm literally just a part of the whole.
1:51 PM
Besides there is no way I'm dealing with the real world directly.
1:51 PM
I'm just fine where I am, thank you very much.
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OmnipresentMicroorganism 11/28/2022 1:56 PM
Outside the window, one of the far-floating strings wobbles and goes a bit taut.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 1:57 PM
...ok well that aside what are we supposed to do about any of this
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It just throws its hands up.
1:57 PM
I don't know!
1:57 PM
If I knew I would have given you a hunch ages ago.
1:57 PM
It places a hand on its forehead and sighs.
1:57 PM
I guess just, look for more things that trigger the feeling, that's me trying to get you to get more info.
1:57 PM
Also press that Chaya person for info, the things it's saying line up almost suspisciously well with the missing pieces.
1:57 PM
They know something.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 2:03 PM
alright i guess
2:03 PM
so now what
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It shrugs and turns around.
2:03 PM
Up to you.
2:03 PM
Wake up if you like. Or fuck around in a dream some more, I don't know.
2:03 PM
Just, get out of my office.
2:03 PM
It waves a hand.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 2:03 PM
You find yourself back where you were in the grey expanse, no sign of the hole you dug.
2:03 PM
Well. What should you do now?
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Where do the strings come from?
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 2:27 PM
Seems as good a thing to investigate as any. You scan the horizon for where the threads in the sky are coming from, and start to walk that way.
2:30 PM
After a while of walking, you find the base of the threads; two odd statues, right next to eachother. The one on the right looks kinda like Flint, and the one on the left looks kinda like Maud.
2:31 PM
...On a whim, you pat the one that looks like Maud on the head.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 2:39 PM
After nothing seems to happen, you shrug and poke the Flint-shaped statue in the forehead.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 2:53 PM
After nothing happens, you shrug again and just lean on the Maud-shaped statue, looking up at the thread trailing off.
2:53 PM
You tug on it lightly out of curiosity.
2:54 PM
Independent of the tug, it suddenly goes taut for a moment, before slackening once again. Huh.
2:56 PM
You tug on the one connected to the Flint statue this time.
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Mich Cathaway (Til Death) BOT 11/28/2022 4:04 PM
Well, you're bored. You guess you'll, try and wake up now?
4:04 PM
You slap yourself in the face and vanish.
4:04 PM
DREAM END
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